I am realizing that one of the benefits of blogging is saving a ton of money on therapy.
I had started this blog post talking about our intention to move out east at some point and that we have accumulated a bunch of "stuff" that I would gladly part with. I went on to state how most of our things would be donated or trashed except for a few things that mean a lot to us.
So I saved the post, took a shower, was getting ready for work and thought "why have I surrounded myself with a bunch of stuff that I don't care about"?
But it occurred to me that since we moved every few years in the military and odds are when they packed up your stuff and threw it on the moving truck that many of these things you treasured were bound to be lost or broken when you arrived at your new location. So, I never got attached to things and our family has always been what has made our house a home.
Around 19 years ago my husband retired from the army and we settled down in Minnesota. Our kids grew up, moved away and now I am left with the "stuff" when what I really miss is what always made our house a home, my kids. I see my daughter, son in law and Hattie as much as possible and we see our son often but it is always a few hours here and there. I of course love my husband and love our life now but our home feels somewhat empty since we have gone from four to two.
So now the appeal of living near Hattie and my daughter and son in law and having them come over and fill the house with noise and love is so strong. I also want my son there too so I am hoping that the same thing that has occurred to me occurs to him.
I want a real home again.