Sort of Wordless Wednesday

Well it's Wednesday, officially mid week. I don't have a lot to blog about so it seemed a good day for a nearly wordless Wednesday and sharing a new picture of Hattie!

 

 

 

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It's almost state fair time!

I don't even know if there was a state fair in NJ when I was growing up. I am sure there was somewhere in the Garden State but I know for a fact we never went.

So this obsession in MN for their state fair is a new concept to me. Even though it doesn't start for 3 weeks people are already plotting their plan of attack. What time to get there, what food booths they hit at what time and in what order, what they want to see before it gets too hot or crowded. If you ask them what their favorite foods are there they don't list off two or three, they usually have a list of like ten and describe in detail how amazing each one is.

My husband used to work in sales so he had to work at the fair every year. SInce he was there for five or six days anyway the last thing he wanted to do was go the fair on his day off.

But now that he has a different job we are starting to get into his whole fair thing. We were super excited to go last year but then I graciously fell down some steps and broke my ankle and needed surgery. But that didn't deter us as we just rented a wheelchair. I think I should get a medal for posting this horrid picture of myself but hey I had just had surgery the weekend before, showering was challenging and so was doing my hair! (and those were the only pants I had that would fit over my cast) Plus it's the fair and have you seen some of the people there!

Are we the obsessed MN fair people yet? No but I can see it happening. I am already envisioning eating the tornado potato with the sausage in the middle. Not sure how that will fit with Weight Watchers but hey it's state fair time and diets be damned!

 

 

 

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Mondays. Yuck.

So here are a few reasons that even though I am so happy to be alive, thrilled my family is happy and healthy and ecstatic I have clothes on my back, food on the table and a beautiful new Granddaughter that I am not appreciative that it is Monday:

• All the work stuff that I try so hard to keep out of my thoughts comes roaring back the minute you open your eyes.
• Of the 100 things I should have done around the house this weekend I did two.
• It is raining out. Which started as thunderstorms at 2am. Which woke me up. Which caused me to start tossing and turning till 3am.
• I have a dentist appointment. Really on a Monday! Of course I will be reminded I should floss more and that I have work (which means lots of $$) that needs to be done that I keep putting off which now means I probably need additional work.
• It's Hattie's first day of day care and my daughters first day back to work. I'm praying my daughter doesn't call me after she drops her off because then if she is crying I will start crying and everyone at work will ask what's wrong but I won't be able to answer because I will be sobbing so hard.
• Then a rumor will start at work that I was crying uncontrollably and my marriage must be falling apart. Which then will cause my co workers to avoid me as they won't know what to say.
• Then I will get paranoid wondering why nobody in the office is talking to me which will make me think I am in trouble at work and everybody but me knows that I am getting laid off.
• All of this could have been avoided if I had won the Powerball.

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Sunday, the 2nd best day of the weekend

When I was younger I hated Sundays as it was always the day my weekend ended and the day before I went back to school.

Now I have to say that even though I am a much bigger fan of Saturdays I certainly savor that second weekend day. Usually they are pretty quiet around our house and that's just fine with me. So with that said I will keep this short, share a picture of Hattie and enjoy the rest of the weekend.

 

 

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It's all in my head

So yesterday morning I was driving into work and pretty much examining my thoughts and why I was feeling them (I do this often by the way) and thinking about how many of those feelings I am comfortable sharing on this blog.

Blogging I've discovered is a great way to share a diary of what you are going through and wish you weren't and what you wish you were doing instead.

So I contemplated peeling away some of those layers I have built up to protect myself and share the things I am most terrified of. Things that make me cry when I'm alone in the car, things that keep me up at night and things that I swear if you all knew you would look at me in a different way or not at all.

Then as I started to write the post and deleted it and started over again I remembered what my sister in law always says. I'm not that important. Not in a shouldn't even be on the earth way but in a get over yourself way.

Everyone has their stuff. Now that Oprah is over we tend to forget that. We all have our demons. We feel overweight, under loved, overworked and overlooked. I don't handle money well, I eat really bad things, I have days where I think a therapist wouldn't even know where to start with me but my guess is I'm not alone. But the truth is no matter how little money we have in the bank, how fat we feel, how much baggage we carry from things we wish did or didn't happen in our lives there is someone that has it worse.

Life is hard and maneuvering it is even harder but let's say for today we press delete to all that stuff that clogs your brain because really it all is just stuff. Find some place that has fruity drinks with an umbrella, bring some slutty novel and your IPod and let it all go because It isn't worth spending one more nano second thinking about.

 

 

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No excuses

I have come to the realization that I need to take off the extra pounds I have put on and I am going to join the Weight Watchers group at work.

Of course once I came to that realization the little excuse fairy perches itself on one shoulder.

Excuses from that fairy:

1. You shouldn't spend the money with trying to save and pay off unnecessary bills.

2. You hate exercising and never do it.

3. You have celiac and that will never work with Weight Watchers.

4. You have done this before and never kept it off.

Then the smart annoying fairy sat on my other shoulder during the WW open house and said this:

1. You actually just realized you have been overpaying on your insurance allotments and it is the same amount as the dues.

2. You don't have to exercise you just cut back on points.

3. They have an app for celiac.

4. Maybe this is the time you can and should do this to be sure you are around a long time for Hattie.

I hate the smart fairy.

 

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Hattie is two months!

Actually Hattie has been two months for over a week but somehow I missed the official day.

I sure miss that sweet girl and celebrating all of these milestones with her in person. She is smiling all the time and my daughter said she even giggled. She has slept through the night a couple of times and we can only hope she starts doing that regularly with my daughter going back to work Monday.

Most times I am fine with living a zillion miles away but then my husband and I will be out somewhere and see a baby and just go crazy. I am sure people think we are nuts gasping and googling at their son or daughter but as soon as we explain our situation they seem to get it (even though they probably call 911 as soon as we walk away).

So happy two month birthday Hattie Mae. I miss you so much that I can't stand it some(most)times. I kind of miss your Mom and Dad too but don't tell them I said so!

 

 

 

 

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